Impact of recession on my mind!!!

Some times I feel modern intelligence is such a burden on our brain! Ignorance is bliss, rightfully said by our ancestors. There are days when I want to get rid of this facade of synthetic, acquired intelligence of mine.

Sink myself deep into Spirituality. I feel realization or intelligence which makes it way into our heart through spirituality, is like Ayurveda. Life giving. Natural. Natures nectar to main kind. No lethal side effects.

This so called intelligence acquired after some 20+ years of killing education process is like the Drugs/Modern medicine. Synthetic and harmful with lots of side effects. Totally western.

Some times it feels good to shed this mask of intelligence and look at life innocently. So please bear with me, for this completely unintelligent mindless posting.

My favorite pass time (which I find very soothing) is to aimlessly gaze out of my office window during the day. I do so while I am working on my Laptop. To keep looking at the bright blue sky and think. What's so great about that for it to get a honorary mention on my blog? Everyone does it. So???

Yes everyone does it, but how many of them write about! For me it is important to write about it. Gazing out of the window at the blue sky, my thoughts free me from the confines of the office walls and its school like atmosphere. I am a free bird in my thoughts.

Actually, it is self pity which makes me think about the bright blue sky. Fact is, I envy those people out there in the sun, on the roads moving about. Enjoying and going about something so mundane as sipping tea at a road side stall or just strolling about aimlessly. Simple yes, mundane yes....but I can't do any of that during my week days. Because I am working. As in, I am in the office. Confined to my workstation, meetings and presentations. Modern offices are so restrictive. There are CCTV camera's, IN/OUT swipe machines and god knows what all. All possible devices and gizmos to track your movement. Extremely claustrophobic. They kill an employee's creativity.

I wont be surprised if a day comes when an employer would want to know the whereabouts of each person 24X7. So they will fit a GPS device in the employees body at the time of joining (my understanding is that one large Indian Corporate is already working on a micro chip which can be fitted into human body). They will be able to trace each and every employee by just entering a code in a system and wow!!!! Just like FedEx traces its parcels.

The problem is that we all spend so many hours of each day at work, trying to do something great. But it just does not seem to be taking the organizations anywhere. See what hard working employees like us have done to the world economy. Those working with Lehman too were working hard. But look what its done to their life. And to the rest of the world also.

In my view, modern day organizations are monsters we have created and we fail to understand them. Many of them have no sense of where they are heading, I mean the organizations. Truly! They make over ambitious business plans, hire wrong kind of people to drive the business, to meet these loud business plans they design incorrect processes.......and then everything goes kaput. Give them some years and they have dug their own grave, ready to shut shop. So many of them working in the top positions truly make me sick. They have an IQ no higher than that of a 5th grader. May be that the qualification to make it to the top. The dumber you are, higher you rise. just like a balloon filled with helium!!!!!(Yahhh I am in a foul mood. It was just a bad day at work!)

Anyways coming back to my thoughts...sitting in my office, I often wonder what's happening to the world out.

People are going about routine chores.

Mothers dragging kids to the school, house wives bargaining with the vegetable vendors, teenagers/youth sitting in their college or generally hanging about in the canteen. Men rushing past in their vehicles to work, crowded buses. People leisurely shopping in malls.

So many people, so many lives and so many ways of living and spending the day.

Actually I am slightly more troubled today because it is a holiday for most people. And I am working. Wrong! My office is open.

So what am I cribbing about???Why not just walk out of the office into the bright blue sunshine and freedom.....

Well.....jobs are difficult to come through. Recession time.

"Having a Job is more important than job satisfcation" a colleagues wife (actually a housewife) pointed out to him!

Commonsense observation.

Terrorist attack at The Taj Hotel, Oberoi, VT Station, Leopold Cafe, Cama Hospital & Nariman House-What am I feeling and thinking as a Mumbaikar?

There is enough being said and enough being printed and discussed about the recent terrorist attacks in Mumbai city.

I take pride in the fact that I am born and brought up in Mumbai. Have lived most of my life in Mumbai. I claim to my friends, relatives and Husband (who hails from Kolkatta) how well I know Mumbai- like the back of my hand.

True Blue Blood Mumbaikar is what my blog says.

But today I am sad and lost. My mind, thoughts and feelings are completely jumbled and empty. Like the needle of a compass, which has lost its magnetic north. Swinging in all directions. Aimlessly.

There is a numbness. There is no intensity left. Blasts, Riots, Bandhs and now the open firing......

Terrible sadness for lives lost, families disrupted, government and private property damaged, international criticism, loss of business, impact on economy....nothing seems to provoke a discussion. No public debates and tea table rounds of discussions.

Yes, a sense of gratitude for the known and unknown brave hearts. For saving lives and giving away their own.

Long talks by ministers, international support, rewards and awards......everything feels very false.

May god give strength to the family of those, who have lost their lives/ are wounded and hurt physically or emotionally.

Me Mumbaikar is down and under today. It seems like an herculean task to get the spirit of Mumbai back this time.

But fight back we will. Nothing or nobody can beak the spirit of Mumbai.

My realisation

When you walk the path of truth, it does not matter whether there are others walking with you. Because on this journey of truth, god is walking by your side, with you. You feel his presence. His presence gives you courage. It does not matter you are alone. Your strength comes from God.

But when you walk the path of lies, even if the entire world is with you; god is not with you. You miss his presence.

People who commit crimes, lie, kill or do wrong know this in their heart, that I am in it alone. God is not with me on this journey. It is a very lonely journey.

The only difference between choosing the path of truth or or the path of lies, is god's company.